[tw body shaming & fat hate]
Got this gem through the door this morning
I try my best to avoid general media and I haven’t bought a magazine in about two years. There is literally no way to escape this shit. Eugh.
You have fashion models and magazine ads all over your wall.
Yes, I do. My entire bedroom is covered in ads and snips from Vogue UK and Elle UK. I bought all these magazines when my ED was developing, and pretty much right through to when I decided I hated where my life/mind was. I was pretty into thinspo during my ED and when I was recovering I put the cut outs on my walls and threw the rest of the magazines away.
I can’t really explain why but it’s comforting for me. They are faces I now know (because they’ve been up there for so long) and it’s a controlled reminder for me. I know that it sounds like total crap but it’s not in my head, I can’t really explain it. All of the images are at least two years old and I’m not the same person I was then but it helps to remember that the person I was was valid and beautiful too.
Sorry if this sounds like shit but it’s hard to articulate.
(I’m actually looking to replace them with something else now though, now that I’m pretty stable in my recovery. It’s another stage of my life/recovery I’m ready to move on from. Also I realize how silly it sounds to say I try and avoid media with them looming, but I completely forget that they’re there most of the time! Whoops.)